I keep wantin to spill it,
it keeps wantin out.
I try to hold it in as long as i can,
it never works.
...
Every Night
I keep wantin to spill it,
it keeps wantin out.
I try to hold it in as long as i can,
it never works.
The pressure in my head starts building up, higher and higher,
DON'T LET IT OUT, DON'T LET IT OUT!
Of course I do, always at the wrong time too.
I end up making a fool out of myself with the red and puffy eyes,
then i make any excuse i can think of...
Every night this happens. AGAIN and again.
I go to take a shower, maybe it will help.
The hot water makes it come down harder, but only for a few seconds.
All is well. It is gone and it won't come back.. I hope. I am glad, I go to bed.
I wake up in the mornin dreading the next day of school, yes, I DO talk to him,
but does he realize hes MY reason for all of this?
He does know that it happens, does he know why? . Lets hope not.
After i get home, I can feel it building up again and again.
I let it out before bed, knowing that the next day it will come back.
Every night this happens, again and again.
What is it?