jaclyn jackson

The way he holds me,
The way he touches me,
The way he looks at me,
The way he kisses me,
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You say you love us all the same,
but yet you say I cause you the most shame.

You say that you love us all in diffrent ways,
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Here I am again
with the broken peice
of glass up against my skin
asking myself over and over
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Why doesnt he want me?
Why wont he accept me as his Daughter?
Why is it that he wants me to put in all the effort while he doesnt even bother trying?
Why does he try and make me feel bad?
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My skin is clear
My skin is clean
My skin hasent been bleeding,
I feel sad,
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(this actually was from along time ago)

I sit here in the corner of my room,
wondering what is going to go wrong next.
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Okay so as you can tell this isnt going to be a poem. I need advice. Ive been with this guy for almost 4 monthes. I love him with everything Ive got, I would do anything for him. Im so sick of people saying that just because im 14 I cant be 'in love' well uhm I think I would know my own feelings. & I can pretty much guarantee that I will never feel these feelings that I have with him with anyone else. The problem is, Im 14 and hes 17. My mom doesnt want me dating him, at all. Im grounded for the rest of the school year because my mom caught me dating him. I know for a fact that If my mom met him that she would absolutly love him. I mean its not like hes disrespectful. & shes worried about him wanting to get in my pants, well he hasent asked me once to do that, or anything like that. She just doesnt understand. & she never will. Everyone my age agrees with me that I shouldnt back down just because my mom tells me to, but at the same time I dont wanna be going behind her back and get caught again. But my mom doesnt understand that he truely makes me happy, the happiest person on the world infact. I just need advice, if you read this whole thing & have any advice for me, thanks alot. I really do appreciate it. [:


yours truely,
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When he holds me in his arms
I hope he never lets go,
When he tells me that he loves me,
I hope he means it so.
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