Jacob Spath

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The paper absorbs the ink that my pen steady bleeds, the outcome are words that expose a hidden me. I try to hide my cries, but my pen defies my will, it has this need to write the pain I really feel.
My life is on these sheets, all the times that I am weak, all the things that I cant express to the people close to me. I cant see the paper, I cant control my hands, they write down all my anger, my pen bleeds when I am sad.
I cant continue fighting, I cant continue lieing, I pretend that I am stronger but inside I am dieing.
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Tears of sorrow, tears of pain.
My tears of sadness I keep contained.
I miss you brother but gone you're not. Ive got our memories, Ive got your thoughts.
I'm torn apart because you're not here, but you're in my heart, you'r in my tears.
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Have you ever found comfort in the arms of a lover, but had to accept that they belonged to another?
Have you ever felt emotions for someone that you had to contain till they were able to break free of their current restraints?
I've never been jealous or felt so alone until the one that I loved had to go home to a man in which she was currently engaged in with a marriage, a family, and a lifestyle she hated. She told me she cared about me and asked me to be patient and wait for the day we could have true relations.
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Do you remember your first love, And how it made you feel. And when that person came around, It felt like time stood still.
I remember being shy, And unable to tell her. When I looked deep into her eyes, I couldn't find the words.
Now that I think back, It should have been easy, I should have said 'I love you' And told her how deeply.
That when she left there came a pain, and an overwhelming loneliness.
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