Jenelle Jenny 2.0 Poems

In the world with a billions of people. I feel so alone. Not the alone in the crowds but the alone as if I was floating in outer space... a black hole actually. Thousands of thoughts that races through my head but the only words I can mutter is "I'm fine I pinky promise" I save the tears for the night. Not the crying in the shower at night, or going for a drive crying or the laying in your bed face in the pillow crying. The crying my hips and wrist know a little too well. Each day I smile so people can think I'm okay. Not the soft fake smile, or the smile when people smile at you, you smile back but the smile that could brighten someone day. You see I have "the help" the medication, therapy and supportive friends. "The help" isn't helping I lied. I tell them what they want to hear. If I don't they will know what I've always known is I'm truly fucked. Not the I forgot my homework fucked, or the flat tire fucked but the wow she is really alone in this place full of billions of people fucked.
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