When I need words most
The seem to drift away
My brain as their host
Doesn't know the right words to say

A panic sets in me
And everything becomes overwhelming
My self-esteem starts to drop
It feels as if my head might pop

It's scary unexpected
It like I'm infected
I feel as if I'm always being tested
I feel like I'm always being rejected

Why can't I talk
Why can't I make that scared feeling stop
I barely ever leave home
I'm starting to wonder if I'll spend all my life alone

When will this end
When will I start being okay again