Often when I can't sleep, I sit up on my bed
Thoughts of all of you rush through my head.
There are many nights I've spent like this,
With the thirteen of you everyday that I miss.
It's 3:30 am as pictures and thoughts go through
My mind, the lives of everyone of you.
I live here with four that I really love,
But I love all of you, I swear, by my God above.
You've all given me great reason for life to go on,
You've all turned my last 20 years into song.
Sometimes as I sit here I hear the sound
Of voices of many boys and girls playing around.
Some of you are now very much grown
One of you even already lives out on his own.
I sit here awake on top my bedspread
While I pray that you're all home safely between your sheets,
While Grandmom hopes all of your dreams are treats.
Some of you tell me you don't think I care
Yet each night in my prayers, you always are there.
For once I thought after your parents were grown-
I'd have no reason for my life to go on.
For to watch you all grow is something they share.
Tonight I want to tell you just how much I care.
I do love you all with each beat of my heart
Even as days pass quickly and we are apart.
I pray for the next time we embrace,
And know that seeing me brings a smile to your face.
Some of you sometimes think it's not right,
That I love only four, well let me tell you tonight
These four share my grouchiness and all the rest,