i hate my father
for leaving us.
for treating mom like that.
for never following through on his many promises.
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Innocence is
the cloak that shields the evil in the world
the veil that blinds you to your father's faults
the protection from the bad things in life that threaten to destroy
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i love the way you talk
i love the way you walk
i love the way you balk
at the idea of hurting me
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everything is surrounding
pushing me down
falling, faster im falling
without a sound
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depression sets in
seeps down in my bones
i know it will win
this thought drives the sadness home
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bouncing around inside my head
trying to escape this feeling
the feeling of anger and fear
so intense my mind is reeling
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fear dulls my mind
so i cant think straight
i pretend to be fine
like the fear doesnt matter
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not a word can be said
to the woman who controls
if she hears ill be dead
broken, ripped, no longer whole
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anger erupts from every pore
steam spills out my ears
every day more and more
i wish you far from here
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I Hate My Father
i hate my father
for leaving us.
for treating mom like that.
for never following through on his many promises.
for not caring enough to try.
i hate my father
for choosing them.
for cheating and lying to them.
for not being there for any of his kids.
for not caring enough to try.
i hate my father
for making the kids care.
for ruining our trust.
for taking away our innocence.
for not caring enough to try.
i hate my father
for doing drugs.
for lying continuously and still.
for making kilee and jarrett think that he was coming for them soon.
for doing this to me.
i hate him for not caring enough to try
to be a good dad and husband.
to be clean and sober.
to be everything i needed him to be.