Kelsie Bell

No one will listen to me when I say I am in pain
I have tried so many times to tell you
But you never listen
You just think I am lying
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The tears that I have shed
Were for you
when I shed these tears,
they weren't for sadness, love, or hate
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What you have told me
only to take me
You said you loved me
I believe it too
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My life is full of pain
I feel invisible
No one like me for who I am
I feel alone
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I feel so cold and alone
I hear voices in my head
I cry every night to see you again
you left me to fend for myself
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I thought you were there to stay
I thought you weren't like the rest
You said you would never leave me
You said you would never hurt me
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When I heard your voice
It sounds soothing and sweet
your voice is what puts me sleep
Every time I heard your voice
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I have only one and one thing only
I wish to be yours from today til the end
I can't stop thinking about you
and all the good times we had
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My heart and soul belongs to you
I give you my heart
for you to hold
Lift me with kindness if words
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Help me mommy for I am here
your child unborn but I can hear,
all the stress that you bear
is weakening me as i start to tear
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I feel so lonely inside
that I am so cold
I feel like no one care
I try to scream for help
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I write in my journal of everything done wrong
I try not to think of anything else
As I write I start to cry
I turned around and grabbed my knife
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Listen here my friend
I have something to say
I was told this by friends who really cares
Everything will be alright
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You said you will be there
you said you will never leave
The promise you made
The promise you kept
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I bit my lip
and close my eyes
I slide the blade on my wrist
the blood starts to pour
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As I sit here on my bed
All I think about is you
I think about how you changed me
how I changed you
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As the silver blade slits my wrist
I don't think of anything
As my mind goes blank
I feel tears going down my cheek
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Why did you go
why did you leave
You knew how much pain I was in
but you still left
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I know that you are a soldier
I know its very true
I will miss you when you go on the battle field
Even if you don't return I will still love you til the end
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As the silver blades slid on my wrist
I think of everything on my death list
As the blade keeps cutting
the less I realize its something bad
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