Lauren Ruark Poems

I spent my
whole life
In love with despair
Kept my lungs full
...

A pathetic statement reaches my lips,
I swallow it down, bit by bit.
I bite my tongue so they won't know,
The stories I have left untold.
...

Was I just your surrogate?
Was I just your revenge?
was I just your surrogate
was I just one more regret
...

Shh It's okay, it's okay
This is our
Dirty, little, secret
...

'For the love of my life. Desi. I am always here for you no matter what. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH'


Maybe if I slit my throat
...

I sit in the floor.
My fingers rub across cold metal.
Thoughts are running through my head.
Memories, memories I don’t want to remember any more.
...

and i was like 13
and it was a Sunday morning i think
and
i think both my parents were still asleep
...

Open wide, look inside
Open wide, look inside
At my autopsy
I feel like
...

As tears run down her face,
she realized she's made a mistake.
An utter suffocation,
she's trying to hold on.
...

Tears in my eyes
my fears alive
dreams were lost
hopes were dry
...