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“do You Think Am Lost? ”

I wish i could take the most breathtaking photographs with you; and keep them in my heart;
I wish to run and win my own race; I wish i could fight a battle woundlessly;
I wish to see my enemies bathing on their own bloodshed over the games of death;
But i do not want to witness a killing field between moslems and my own Filipino kins;
I wish to live a peaceful life and enjoy it as it may seem to be;
Experience the joys and serenity of life as others have been enjoying; forgetting the excruciating pain eating the whole of me;
I want to see the whole world with you!
I want to experience things I’ve never experienced before;
I wish i could become a doctor to cure my own sufferings; to become a lawyer to free my self and prove to all that i can free them as well;
How I wish to be ideal for all that they may look up at me and render respect accorded to me;

I want to be the most doting mother to my kids;
A loving wife to my husband;
A sweet and caring friend to all;
A responsible sister to my siblings;
A respectful daughter;
A loyal, diligent and honest employee to my employer;
A woman with undoubtful credibility;
I want to improve how to control my temper over moments of deceit and loss of trust;
I want to be more than what others expect of me;
I wish i could give more than what is asked of me; and I wonder how can I;
I wish i could say with all honesty, that i have reached where i want to be.
That longing stops and would seeps in.
Sooner or later, i will rest my case.

I wonder if i could leave something for the world to cherish; if they would still look up at me because i was one of those whom they look up to while i was on earth;
Or they would curse me till eternity because i failed their expectations;
because i never was as they want me to be; that i have not able to do what is asked of me;
Though how much i have tried... still i can not see, i can't reach, i can't...
Many might have agreed, I am personally a woman of great strength over pains and difficulties; a woman of admirable intelligence; clever mindedness;
They may be true; they may be correct.
But i am weak without their notice;
So weak in love; So weak in physical; emotionally weak as well.
So weak when my kids are strong;
So dumb and fool when my mate is keen and intelligent;
I could easily tumble without one taking heed that am already drowning.
Without anybody seeing I am LOST.
That i never won the battle that i wished i have fought well;

That nobody has really loved me more than what i could have loved in return;
That nobody has shared more than what i could have shared;
Or maybe because i expect too much that others fell short of what they ought to be?
From here, I feel I am lost and no one sees me through.

I hope my agony will soon end and others will remember me because I have made a difference in them and not because they help me ease my pain and expect me to pay them back in return.
How could a lost soul pay?
Tell me, how to find the missing ME.

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