Megan du Toit

I bathed in the sun
And let the light penetrate deep into my veins
To warm my frozen blood to flow at a steady pace
……I bathed in the sun
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Haunted by you at sleep or awake
Searching for just a glimpse of your face
Destructive thoughts still in my head
Missing the pain that once was said
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These hands
Can break and tear at chains
These hands
Can calm my pains
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Yes I wear a double size
It don’t mean I cannot satisfy

Yes my breasts bulge from arm to arm
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You hold
You tear
You rape
You violate
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I long to breath your name from my mouth
Extend my fingers to your back
To raise my arms in your embrace
Exalt in fear at your touch
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All this time has passed between us
My addiction
My obsession
My lust
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Klop Klop Klop
Life stands at my door
Turn turn turn
He is looking for me
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The bitter taste of your tongue rings sore in my ears
Your hand's hardness pushing on my bruised spirit
Your eyes pierce as silent witnesses to my hurt
The length of your legs an echo of the distance between us
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Autumn is approaching with its assertive chill
Ready to wash my summer sins to past
The days grow dark and isolated
I have no choice but to face myself
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I hear a loud thump
I can hear her screaming
I run to the dining room and see her tumble to the floor
Mummy! ! Mummy! !
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My veins are warm with blood provoked by your mind
My legs move swift following the sound of your voice
My arms learn to embrace through the calm of your soul
My mouth jitter words to my head you saved time and again
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