There are many first on my birthday today.
This is my first birthday that I had a daughter Louise Wayne,
She will be turning one, while I am turning Thirty nine,
Many long years of unexpected labor of love
but regretting is far from my mind.

This is my first birthday that my father gone to heaven.
This is my first birthday that I will thank him,
Fronting his tomb.
For he knows that I love him and I regret the days that I did not come home to see him,
I love my father and I miss him.

This is my first birthday when the man I love left me,
For some reasons, whatever it is, I do not understand.
My world revolves around him, my heart is for him. I love him anyway.

This is my first birthday of happy and sad one,
I had a daughter, who gave me strength to face a new day everyday,
I will celebrate my many years here on earth fatherless,
And I will blow my candles and drink my wine, without my man beside me.

Whatever it is, I believe that God intends me to live long thirtyty nine years for a reason.
Yes, I had a daughter.
Eventhough my father gone to heaven, he will always alive here forever in my heart.
And with the man I love? There are always a second chance.