Misses Unknown

Let’s start off with explaining the meaning of friendship? What is friendship? Friendship is a very special relationship more powerful then family they care for you, lift you up when you’re down and keep that smile on your face. Oh Adala
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The first time I laid my eyes on you, you got me star strucked boy wa did u do to me? How did we get so close? We were sooo in love wa happened to us? Your smile your laugh it was soo magical it made me feel feelings that I shouldn’t be allowed to feel but We allowed problems to interfere we was perfect and now it’s all gone.
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She came in to my life and mixed up all my feelings it was all confusing I didn't know what to feel it feels like I have a crush on her that just cant happen am straight I ignored my feelings maybe it was me just losing my mind.
I meet her again and I can feel the butterflies in my tummy she hugs me and I don't want to let go. Her body against mine felt like no other feeling she smiles at me and her smile makes me want to kiss her. When am with her I forget all my problems forget everything all I think about is her.
Her smile her laugh her body it drives me crazy I wanted her so badly I sit with her again and we talk and talk I feel safe with her then it happened the kiss our first kiss it span out of control all my feelings I let it out in the kiss I felt out of control I wanted more and more I looked in to her eyes she looked worried and I realized what I have become does this mean am gay? The word was screaming at me I stopped let go of her and ran she screamed my name I couldn't stop I just ran how could this happen? My parents would hate me am in love with the same sex. Oh what do I do? Do I accept the fact that am gay NO I cant be gay this cant happen to me
Sitting in the park with my headphones in drawing ignoring the world all of a sudden shes there I was so scared I stood up to leave she took my hand and span me and kissed me oh it was unbelievable I couldn't stop I put my arms around her neck and passionately kissed her she always made me feel out of control she slid her hand under my top and that felt like heaven I didn't want to stop I wanted this girl, she looked in to my eyes and I looked back she made me feel so relaxed, we sat like we used to and talked I can be myself around her, how can I ever leave her when shes the only person who can make me feel happy
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