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An Emotion?

There are some days I feel good
And some days I feel bad
This time I'll be good
And then the next time, I'll be sad

I dont know what to expect
And I don't want anyone to be hurt
Sometime I think it's best
If I'm left alone to hurt

When I come back to you
It never is the same
And time and time again
I promise that I'll change
I cant make it up to you
Or even to myself
Sometimes I think, I should end myself
I don't want to make anyone feel guilty, but even writing that line now, just did
What should I do
If I can't live like this

It's all bottled up, deep down inside
I think I might've jarred it
Because I cant even recall
how this feeling even started
Maybe it was the abuse or
Even all the lying
I don't want to remmeber
How my young-self lied awake crying

Sometimes I think I'm over it and I'm back on top
But then I'm beneath it, and it turns out I'm not
I want to lose myself and everything around me
Hide away in someplace no one can ever find me
Hide away in a forest surrounded by some trees
or even in a far away little city by the sea

Only in that way
I could be free
Only in that way
I could finally be pleased with me

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