I was nervous, I was anxious. I was scared that if I'd asked you your answer would be so clear. You'd say no and my whole world would disappear.
I'd fall down to ashes. I wouldn't survive. Cuz' I'd cry myself to sleep with my red bloodshot eyes. I wouldn't survive one more night.
That's why I lashed out at the guy in the other room. I thought if I'd stab him. My emotions would be gone too. The anger would pop like Pennywise's red balloon. The despair would fade away like a river in the desert sun.
But I was wrong, it didn't help.
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