14th Hour Poem by Mathapelo Hlatshwayo

Part2

When live decided to take away my treasure with pleasure and left me under pressure
When life covered day at 14hours I didnt even see my self reach 24 years
I was just a quarter age
Another 14 year old

When the moles gathered at my home
And he was laid to the hole
And no hope was left for me as a whole
I was another 14 year old

Even thou I didnt tear that time
It didnt mean I didnt tear at all
Cause wen I'm in pain I cried so silently
Just to avoid thee "I'm sorry's"

I cried asked why he left so soon
Even before noon
Why didnt he at least wait for thee 14 hour

I still see your pale face, eyes closed facing up to the roof
The last tym I saw u I was biting my lips to say my last farewell
And I was only 14 years old

I didnt see grave swallow u
For I swear I would have let u out for a breath.....

One last breath
One last day
To show my appriciation and bid proper farewell
hoping it would take the pain away.
Not 10 shots
Not 4 joints
But rather the joining of our hearts,
The security of knowing that you are with me in spirit
Because... I'm not ready to let you go.
Will i ever be?
I'm sorry
I know you're going to a better place but i fear you won't remember me
I'm sorry I sound selfish trying to keep you in a cruel world but you have left me...
My only "get away", my only escape, my only happy place...
You're all gone
I know i sound selfisb but what about me?
Why do you have to die
Its as if you're trying to return the pain i have caused you for all those years
Only 10 times worse with 14 pills in my jand trying to find you in that "betterplace"
Don't leave me...