Kaspa Richards

Rookie (29/08/1988 / London, England)

A Broken Cookie - Poem by Kaspa Richards

Sometimes feel as if I've lived too long,
Too much shit gone on too many things have gone wrong,
Too many hits on the bong left me feeling monged,
Sedative pills and magic mushies feel,
As if I lifted the veil of reality and all that's real,
Surprising considering I was an advocate of fags kill,

Coz my life soured at nine a victim of nature’s crime,
Took away my lil bro who was born ill and never fine,
Then the stress when I was twelve in a house of hell,
The next 7 years drove me to a point I heard insanity’s bells,
Picked up a spliff though f*ck it might as well,
The only thing that gave me enjoyment was my appointment with my dealer who sells,

Then valium came along singing a sweet lil song
“Just swallow me that chilled high wont be long”,
At eighteen it felt id lived two lifetimes what more could fate bring?
Then I looked in the mirror with horror at what id seen,
I was a totally different person a person id never wanted to be,

Had no trust in people I saw them as feeble,
You don’t know about a life attacked daily by evil,
Your life is a bed of roses mines the bee that will sting your noses,
Now im 21 my life made me as bright as the sun and look how far I’ve come,
Don’t touch drugs got my own flat so you know im not a bum,
My life’s a broken cookie and im trying to save the crumbs,
I want that special someone been lonely for too long,
Kind of hard though when I don’t trust anyone,
Not interested in getting know you or your mum,

But behind my brick wall I sense the true me is still there,
Wishing I had that special girl to show im able to care,
When your sick ill pull back your hair and when you’re upset ill be there,
To wipe away the tears and if you’re scared ill hold you tight to protect you from your fears,

This is the true me speaking from deep inside,
Just a shame this side only comes out when I write,
When im with someone I like I make them believe everything’s alright,
They see nothing’s wrong coz my problems are out of sight,
That’s just coz there in my mind too busy having a fight,
So my true self is kept in the shadows and out of the light,

Been in the dark for so long I don’t even know myself,
I swear my life has f*cked up my health,
Craving to be with someone but no desire to be taken off the shelf,
What I do and what I want are two different things,
I want to get close to people but hate what people sing,
Hate it when my phone rings or when my doorbell dings,

Want a proper relationship but hate the games,
I find social conventions are lame,
Bullsh*t conversations and fake pleasantries are a pain,
Life could be so much simpler if you just straight up acknowledge loves flame,

Im just a complicated individual ill never be the same,
All I hope to get out of life now is just to remain sane,
Coz I felt as if I was trapped inside a runaway crazy train,
But I used my brain, fixed up my life and started all over again.


Comments about A Broken Cookie by Kaspa Richards

  • (3/10/2010 8:40:00 AM)


    'My life’s a broken cookie and im trying to save the crumbs,
    I want that special someone been lonely for too long,
    Kind of hard though when I don’t trust anyone'

    I really like this part because I totally feel this. It's not because 'I saw them as feeble' it was more of too much 'close' friends or anyone close to me, for that matter who hurt me. I really like that part.


    But the best part for me is:
    'This is the true me speaking from deep inside,
    Just a shame this side only comes out when I write,
    When im with someone I like I make them believe everything’s alright,
    They see nothing’s wrong coz my problems are out of sight,
    That’s just coz there in my mind too busy having a fight,
    So my true self is kept in the shadows and out of the light, '

    All in all, I could give this a 10/10. I love this one!
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  • (1/25/2010 4:37:00 PM)


    A little tricky reading it! but heartfelt and sincere message..Cool((: : (Report) Reply

  • Sadiqullah Khan (1/25/2010 4:08:00 AM)


    But I used my brain, fixed up my life and started all over again
    .........bravo
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Poem Submitted: Monday, January 25, 2010



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