A Glass Of A Painkiller Poem by White Rose

I am still holding on to my memories of you
I know they ask me to let go
To make myself feels free
But i can't
My loneliness keep me here
In the same spot
And doesn't seems to leave
Is it really that hurt to love you
I have to make silent cry
No tears and keep smile
I search God.. i was happy for awhile
But when it comes no one
I feel so cold
I need to drink
To have a glass of painkiller
Why is to hard to let go you?
When i try to love the new one
We have so much different
Makes me feel so much down inside
God.. why do i have to feel this?
So deep in pain