A Monster Within Winter Times Poem by Dyhanara Rios

Now I'm crawling with chills;
Withdrawal is breaking me down.
I will spend the rest of my life
Hunting my drug
And forcing it out of everyone I know -
Stealing the energy from those I love.

I've become a monster!
It's a new year and no one,
Oh, no one will recognize the new me

Pretty little miss,
I mean you no harm, just
Oh, just cuddle with me;
I'll never tell.
If I'm not in your arms,
I'm wrapped in hell.

My heart beats in a slow, awkward tempo
Compared to the rising rhythm of yours.

You have to admit
We love the warmth of it all.
My wishes were finally granted
and that's not all -
It's all platonic love, my love
(Maybe not even that; have a look at that) ,
Nothing to worry about, love,
I'd never, ever hurt you, love.
You have to admit that you, love,
Will someday grow into a monster, too -
A bear that requires cuddling to survive
The winter and hibernate in peace.

For now I'll hold my own Winter bear;
For now the memories will be enough,
But I'm waiting, craving someone's touch.

Years will pass and seasons will change
But I will freeze with my innocent fantasies
Should reality not grant my wishes again.