A Prayer Poem by Lisa Ann Smallwood

not a day has past in many long days
that my cheeks were not stained with tears
and for what I can remember
never was my heart this miserable in years

I somehow lost my way and sight
tempted by fancy giving in to flight
a strong woman you are my friends they say
but I haven't let them see me wipe the tears away

how did this happen my heart just too kind
the deception the control thoughts in my mind
why push me why tease me
don't heavy my load
for my strength is a costume
this weight it cant hold

I sleep not as night falls my body to weary
I lay and I pray oh dear God can you hear me
If this is my burden of which I must bear
please cloth me with strength like Samson's hair

for I once had the burning bush so flaming and bright
it guided me and comforted me its timing was right
but nasty has claimed it and no sign shall I see..
I'm blind and I'm lost please come and save me

my family they need me I'll do what I can
but this load is too heavy for many a man
my body grows weaker the pains that I hide
feeling bruised and beaten from the inside

still humble I ask thee to heal my heart
for the happy I had has fallen apart
there once was a someone who made me smile
but I fear he was lying to me all the while

so Im here all alone and I need to be carried
your foot steps alone get me through till I'm buried
when people see strength its you shining through me
your light that does glow and always renews me

no I'm not perfect a sinner I be
oh Lord you know that I can only be me
was you that made me and wrote my name in the book
when Im weary and happy its to you that I look

so Im asking my God and to you I do pray
to be carried and strengthened to survive one more day.

In Jesus Name Amen
LAS