A Ranting Poem by Allison Barnett

Im sorry, i just cant control it sometimes
The pain of my past threatens to return
when this present one is rekindled.
The hot waves of anger you feel rolling towards you
are just the aftereffects.
Harmless, but they still burn, dont they?
I apologize for the pettiness and injustice of it,
but in reality, it's you who shouldbe apologizing.
Ive waited here for months on end it seems.
All of your promises and truths have fallen,
flat on their faces.
Im sick of trying to help them stand on my own,
you either need to take over or at least assist
because they dont even belong to me,
i shouldnt have to do this in the first place.
Its your job, not mine.
The only truths and promises i have is love.
Thats My job
I can love you, but i just dont know whether or not
you deserve it.
Do you?
Ive been waiting for that answer for lifetimes
but alas, look what ive done.
My fury escaped again.
And all for naught, i still love you and,
though it goes against my better judgement,
will continue to wait for you.
Please dont break my heart...