A Search For Life Poem by Katheryn Foley

I know I'm acting weird round you lately, I've just got a lot on my mind.

I'm hard to figure out, I hide my true feelings well,

But if you just look a little deeper I know you can tell,

just take that step because I know you care,

tell me that you'll listen and I'm there,

An open mind and open heart is what I need to fill this part.

When you hugged me that night i was depressed with fright,

But I don't think you could tell because you just smiled when I almost fell,

Maybe hidden in the back of your mind are thoughts of asking me if I'm OK.

And I hope you listen, that's what I pray.

I put on a smile so you would not see, but events keep reminding me constantly.

My past creeps up and takes me by surprise I fall when it hits me every time,

Picking myself up doesn't seem to be working,

Not this time I'm just choking,

Waiting for some life to pick me up and set me on my feet,

But it gets hard to wait, feel like going back to my old ways,

But waiting becomes suffocating, everyday my feelings a mystery,

Doesn't even feel like I know myself anymore,

Just want to escape this even more, so if anyone cares just ask me,

Let me know your there to catch me when I fall to you,

But if you never tell me I'll never know and I would act fast before I decide to go.