Abuse Poem by The Poet Darkling

Tempted by promises of love
I went willingly to your bed
Unaware that your words were lies
And that I was being mislead

I was starving for affection
And was so naïve in my youth
Believed the lies spilt by your tongue
As if they were the gospel truth

The first time that you blacked my eye
You made a liar out of me
I covered up your abuses
So that nobody else could see

And then I quickly forgave you
When you apologized that night
You said you would do anything
You had to do to make it right

The next few times went the same way
You'd say "sorry" and I would cry
You'd tell me it was my own fault
When I'd ask you to tell me why

You convinced me I was worthless
Who else could love someone like me?
Erased any inclination
I might have had on getting free

Then from there the beatings worsened
As your temper remained unchecked
You'd hit and hurl insults
Until I lost all self respect

As all my self-esteem faded
Your power over me would grow
Still I defended the doctrine
You reinforced with every blow

I thought the abuse was better
Than being unloved and alone
And the hell I knew was better
Than any hell that was unknown

But I've finally learned my lesson
With the last beating that you gave
You will never hurt me again
Today they laid me in my grave