ABUSED LOVE
I Love me
I love me so
I love me enough to let them abuse me
They keep my body in check with cuts and bruises,
It’s like our little game, but whoever snitches loses,
From when I’ve started I’ve won every game,
In appreciation they give me more scars and pain,
But then they got tired and wanted to play for one mans gain
So the last man who stands, get’s to have me
Satisfy me, give me what I want
I know he’ll love me without a front
He Love’s me
He Love’s me so
He Love’s enough to end the game and never let me go,
He said that if I were to ever leave him, he might just kill me,
But I already know that that’s how much he Love’s me,
He says that he doesn’t want our Love to show,
Before others find out and talk will grow,
So I go along with it because I know he’s always right,
Just like when he told me to be careful because no man can ever Love me right,
I put my trust in him for everything,
Just like when we talk, I tell him anything,
He told me he’ll treat me like a lady,
And I told him I’ll treat him like my man,
I stuck to my word, so what makes you think he can’t?
Even though he beats me, mistreats me, vociferate freely,
I let him do whatever he likes just so I can be pleasing,
He’s my King and also my Master,
He says that if I don’t do what he says then it’ll lead to death faster,
He then tells me that my struggles and pain will surely fade,
So he leaves me on the streets where I get laid and paid
They Love me,
They Love me so,
They Love me enough to pay me mo’
They said two at a time will cost more for the better
But if only I give it to them at the same time with equal pleasure
I give them there needs
And they hold me down on both knees
I’m worth the money they said
But if only they can add two more in the bed
I feel loved
They all want me at the same time
But then they get tired and start up a game that lasts all night
The game goes on for me to be it
I have to tag one of them in-order for me to not get hit
It’s entertainment to them but I know they love me
To tag them I have to hop on them like their a pony
The game continues until they get tired
If I quit before them they might strangle me with the wire
They ask me if I love them and which one of them do I love
I say all of you just because
They look at me once again, but this time there holdin’ the wire
They said damn baby, why you gotta’ be a liar
So they all take me out
And leave me hanging
That’s where I learned about street banging
It love’s me
It love’s me so
It love’s me enough to show me how to hustle
I got that gangster passion and my raps are lastin’
I got my street fam that’s everlastin’
And I don’t need nobody to try to claim me as theirs
Cause I now belong to the street who loves me and really cares
I got that Crip love for all my nigga’s
I don’t need to stay under a roof cause I’m bullet-proof
I’m hard as hell and my words sell
I pull licks like it’s nothin’
Cause my street fam taught me “if it costs it’s worth somethin’”
So I take what I like
And show my gang how to hustle right
I get more Love than ever before
I can last for days on the street
cause I know I got my street fam all day every week
They love me so much they get me caught up with the five-0
But it’s fine cause they’ll still have love for me
I’m locked up, cuffed up and
On lockdown, you’ll never see me frown
But always stand tall looking all bold
My street fam never came to visit cause that’s how much
They love me so
They wanted to wait for when I get out, which meant in 4years when I’m 22 years old
I can’t wait to step-foot into the street cause I missed it with all my soul
The street will always love me, I already know
As I came out of lockdown, I met this handsome man
By the look of his dress-code he seems pretty well-off and in-hands
He just got released from jail and asked me if I wanted to go with him
I follow him and go to wherever he took me
I think he loves me
I think he loves me so
I think he loves me enough to take me out for a show
He definitely did take me out for a show
He took me to somewhere called Church of the Pentecostal
I’ve never thought everyone would be in-love with the same man
Or I think he’s a someone, but I still don’t understand
When they say love they mean it entirely different
Compassion, adulation, and complete sweet sensation
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