Abused Love (A Life Story) Poem by Rocky'N that StARR

ABUSED LOVE
I Love me

I love me so

I love me enough to let them abuse me

They keep my body in check with cuts and bruises,

It’s like our little game, but whoever snitches loses,

From when I’ve started I’ve won every game,

In appreciation they give me more scars and pain,

But then they got tired and wanted to play for one mans gain

So the last man who stands, get’s to have me

Satisfy me, give me what I want

I know he’ll love me without a front


He Love’s me

He Love’s me so

He Love’s enough to end the game and never let me go,

He said that if I were to ever leave him, he might just kill me,

But I already know that that’s how much he Love’s me,

He says that he doesn’t want our Love to show,

Before others find out and talk will grow,

So I go along with it because I know he’s always right,

Just like when he told me to be careful because no man can ever Love me right,

I put my trust in him for everything,

Just like when we talk, I tell him anything,

He told me he’ll treat me like a lady,

And I told him I’ll treat him like my man,

I stuck to my word, so what makes you think he can’t?

Even though he beats me, mistreats me, vociferate freely,

I let him do whatever he likes just so I can be pleasing,

He’s my King and also my Master,

He says that if I don’t do what he says then it’ll lead to death faster,

He then tells me that my struggles and pain will surely fade,

So he leaves me on the streets where I get laid and paid



They Love me,

They Love me so,

They Love me enough to pay me mo’

They said two at a time will cost more for the better

But if only I give it to them at the same time with equal pleasure

I give them there needs

And they hold me down on both knees

I’m worth the money they said

But if only they can add two more in the bed
I feel loved

They all want me at the same time

But then they get tired and start up a game that lasts all night

The game goes on for me to be it

I have to tag one of them in-order for me to not get hit

It’s entertainment to them but I know they love me

To tag them I have to hop on them like their a pony

The game continues until they get tired

If I quit before them they might strangle me with the wire

They ask me if I love them and which one of them do I love

I say all of you just because

They look at me once again, but this time there holdin’ the wire

They said damn baby, why you gotta’ be a liar

So they all take me out

And leave me hanging

That’s where I learned about street banging


It love’s me

It love’s me so

It love’s me enough to show me how to hustle

I got that gangster passion and my raps are lastin’

I got my street fam that’s everlastin’

And I don’t need nobody to try to claim me as theirs

Cause I now belong to the street who loves me and really cares

I got that Crip love for all my nigga’s

I don’t need to stay under a roof cause I’m bullet-proof

I’m hard as hell and my words sell

I pull licks like it’s nothin’

Cause my street fam taught me “if it costs it’s worth somethin’”

So I take what I like

And show my gang how to hustle right

I get more Love than ever before

I can last for days on the street

cause I know I got my street fam all day every week

They love me so much they get me caught up with the five-0

But it’s fine cause they’ll still have love for me

I’m locked up, cuffed up and

On lockdown, you’ll never see me frown

But always stand tall looking all bold

My street fam never came to visit cause that’s how much
They love me so

They wanted to wait for when I get out, which meant in 4years when I’m 22 years old

I can’t wait to step-foot into the street cause I missed it with all my soul

The street will always love me, I already know


As I came out of lockdown, I met this handsome man

By the look of his dress-code he seems pretty well-off and in-hands

He just got released from jail and asked me if I wanted to go with him

I follow him and go to wherever he took me

I think he loves me

I think he loves me so

I think he loves me enough to take me out for a show

He definitely did take me out for a show

He took me to somewhere called Church of the Pentecostal

I’ve never thought everyone would be in-love with the same man

Or I think he’s a someone, but I still don’t understand

When they say love they mean it entirely different

Compassion, adulation, and complete sweet sensation