Acting Poem by Julian Spence

I have to act because I feel I have to be punished. So I became that person.

I had to act because I felt that they needed to fix me. So I had to remember who I lost.

I had to act numb, so I can remember what I've done. If it was ever even real.

I had to act to survive, play defeated then pretend to live. Because I felt is was a door that needed to be opened.

I remember lots and forget even less. Actions acted out all because we digress.

The only true healing I've ever experienced is in the rhythm of rhymes. I write them down so that the next me. Will have an easier time.

Because I'm alone. I act like someone's there. Because you're there, I'm always alone.