Afraid Poem by Dena Jo Mulkin Hendren

I try to understand the feelings in my heart
not quite understanding the pain and the fear
only knowing that I need something more

To afraid to let anyone know what truly possesses my soul.
I am more than I will ever let anyone see
to afraid to be me.

Destroy my belief and hold back from true love
to scared to be
To unsure to let you see
I am just an ordinary girl that is afraid to fail
To let the world know that yet again I did not succeed.

Imagine that!

When I am gone everyone will say the same thing
She was a good person
gave so much
yet no one will know I gave everything except the one thing I had to give

me

I try now to think of the words to say
not knowing how to express the feelings that are controlling me
I don’t know what I am becoming
This person is not someone I recognize, but I don’t want her to leave. For some reason I think she may be the person I am supposed to be.

Whether it is with you or on my own
I know now that I need to make the move to become me.

Maybe to fail but to be free.