After Treason Poem by Maria Jose Cid Velazquez

Jesus, Karma exists
I lament all the actions
and thoughts.

I knew it was wrong
I just wanted him so much
I loved him, I needed him.

Sometimes we focus just in one thing,
and it isn't real. I offer you my tears
that are the most obvious pain. I give you
my face, because I can't be proud
in this kind of affairs.

I just ask you or someone to love
to love me, to wait for me
and appreciate what I am
not what I give or the pleasure
he feels having sex.

I'm human, I swear I have feelings
although I hide them so many times.
No treason will ever be so small
for not to feel it.

I understand, I hear blue music
it accompanies me to feel
someone shares my sentiment.

It is hard to believe, but all comes back
in a more harmful way,
give me strength to be out of this pain
I need you. I need your love
I need someone's love.

I feel nothing is right,
the whole world over me
trying to put me down
and I want to elude it.

Save me from solitude,
because I'm living on it,
I hear whispers, I feel an arm
they're my friends tryin' to console me

Nothing works,
I'm burning from the inside
and there's no wather to
ease it up. Because it was a bomb
a huge explosion where the ashes
will never disappear.

Guide me please,
I don't know where to go
how to begin
how to live without love.