All My Life.... Poem by toxicity ryan adams

all my life ive been
searching for something
everytime i feel
its always nothing
look at my face
dear god im smiling
oh nevermind
on the inside im dying
i feel like it never ends
all the liars and the fakers
dont ask for my heart
i havent one to lend
someone stole it
took it away
ripped it tore it
in every which way
why did she do it
only god knows why
she enjoys it
knowing im dead inside
look at my pale face
my grey eyes
the life in me is gone
ever since she said goodbye
i get so numb all the time
she wants me to succumb
so i slice at my vains
so i can feel
i see my blood this pain is real