Alone I Wait Poem by Zane Crow

I feel like i'm fading
my life ticking slowly away
oh how i wish i could have told you sooner
at least if it mattered
but once my heart broke
i didn't want to tell you
i just wanted to curl up and wait to die
its not something i caused
or anything i planned
but by an incurable timebomb
tick tock
my life now on a clock
it eats away at me
killing everything inside
how i should have told you
at least to let you know
that i was dying
but i guess it wouldn't matter
you'd still have everything you wanted
but with your best friend dead and gone
i know that you may read this and may not care at all
oh god i wish i told you
at least i'd die a happy death
but now all thats left is more pain
and misery
suffering
for all i have left is time
and that will soon leave me too
empty dreams of you and me
silent screams for the life i'll never have
a wife and a kid
with the woman i fell in love with
and hung on till the very end
so tell me this
whats there to fight for
when you have nothing left to live for
no reason, no purpose
just here in bed lying
without you
without you
so painfully alone
not even the painkillers
can numb it anymore
i might as well reject the treatment
and cut my life short