Wish I could just win for once
Second place is as good as last
Wish I could just live for once
But I have no future, and I have no past
Wish I could just love for once
But I’m too consumed in self-loathing
I’m starving for something more
I’m sweating and I’m bloating
I need a break from this sadistic thing called life
I’m defeated by Green and white
I struggle more and more by the day
To recapture what’s left of my life
I wish I could just feel again
But with every touch I seem to fail
I try to travel down the path of righteousness
But I always veer off on to a sinister trail
I’m an addict and a hypocrite
A liar and a sinner
I’m a lover, I’m full of hate
I’m a loser and a winner
I’m everything at once I wished not to be
My everyday world is at places I never thought I’d see
I feel so dirty and used, and at one time I felt clean
I used to love the world, but I forgot what love means
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
I feel like this quite a lot of the time too. I agree about life being sadistic- just like school. Great poem.