An Ambiguity Of Us Poem by RIC BASTASA

long after midnight you sit on the floor
you wish there was flashing of lightning and the thrill of thunder
or that there be fires on the sky like meteors flickering
like wishing stars
or the moon burning like red coals, the stars more curious
like signals of light of the nuclear war

you do not wish her to leave
you want still to be in bed for love
(you like it to be lust)


the heavy rains have long stopped
and you still remember the rush of the waters from the mountains
i have always wondered
what is in store for us here
we are naked and truthful

i have, perhaps wasted my life
trying to take you from your own kind of death
you wish to cease breathing as always
and it has become too irritating

i had a dream last night, that i emailed you something
like: please be gentle to yourself
but you were away on a trip and
you have no answer
(the phone says you are sick
or shall i say madly in love with someone else)