Anxiety Poem by Allison Lyons

I know what it's like to live in a world where you don't belong nobody understands and people say they do but I have social anxiety I walk in grocery stores and feel like I'm embarrassing myself just by picking out a cereal I leave to put things in the car but I feel my heart sink inside my chest while I talk to myself putting groceries in the backseat telling myself it's okay and its normal I see a woman laughing and I instantly think it's about me I watch all these people around me I go to put my cart away but apologize frantically because I'm getting in the way of cars I hate being alone and when in the store on my own I feel alone everyone can see I am alone and only thing in my mind is all times I've ever felt lonely but imagine what depression is like on top of that it's all these weird emotions you feel lost without an idea in the world of what to do everyone says follow your heart but what do I do if my heart is shattered into a million tiny particles that all desire something different