Approval And Love Poem by Louise Tredoux

The warmth of approval in your eyes,
your sweet expectation that I’ll always
belong to you versus Werner’s proving
his theory that all love is doomed

Kissing me in an effort to shatter your illusions,
saying your Louise is untrue - I was asleep on
the couch, watching TV with Werner, I
murmured your name, he kissed me

I woke up and realized the vibe was all wrong,
no spiritual connection with your essence, I
broke free, saying your inner being is not
tuned to mine, you do not reflect

Noble ideals unto me, kissing is a neutral game
while I prefer an inner connection, Rudi’s eyes
full of love filling my soul with joy, Werner said,
You are wise beyond your years

I want to disillusion Rudi before life hurts him
too much, wipe the warm, trusting smile from
his mouth and put pain and shame in his eyes,
but YOU will not do that to him

And I will not do that to you, I have learnt of your
inner strength, not preferring mercenary hedonism
to your dream of inner connection, and I’m jealous,
I smiled - Juliette loves you, she could show you

What real love can do, his eyes lit up, is that
really true? I like her too - - I secretly sighed
knowing how often I would be alone; BUT I’d
rather go to a convent while you’re gone

Than lose the warmth of love and approval
in your eyes, the happy, trusting smile that
keeps your mouth sweet and wonderful…