Nicole D'Settemi

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As I Sit Here And Rot - Poem by Nicole D'Settemi

I cannot stop these cravings,
I really want to shoot it
Oh yes, I know the truth
Oh yes, I fucking blew it!

I'm not sure where to turn
Or how to possibly hide it
I'm completely addicted now
And, I need not deny it!

Everything has paused
It's like life has abruptly stopped
And, I'm stuck craving this junk
As I sit here and rot!

I cannot shake these feelings—
Of being out of control
I cannot seem to retain
What Satan it seems, stole.

I'm frightened now
You son of a bitch!
Oh God, how I'm pained,
JESUS CHRIST, how I itch!

My skin, it is throbbing
My heart, it beats slow
I feel as if I'm on fire!
As if I could explode!

Go away—
Stop invading my mind, PLEASE
I run, and I hide!
But, you always seem to find me!

You are there all the time
Day in, through the night
You are a God in this battle,
But, me? I am losing this fight!

I still don't give in
Or, at least I won't give up NOW—
But, I'm heading straight for danger—
If I don't GET UP NOW!

You are warping my thoughts
You are fucking with my vision
With, all your sick fine-tuning
And, excellent precision!

Yet, I see enough to know
The truth that's plainly there
So, I'll kill all the useless
Those who committed the dare

Dared to help add to—
This Lost Poisoned Soul
Threatened to be heartless,
And apathetic, and cold!

ROT IN PIECES—
AS YOU DO DROP DEAD!
It's over with, now—
Why I've taken your head!

I've won, I'm clean
I'm fresh; I'm new
And you're dead; you're ugly
You're gone,
You're you.

Yes, YOU.


© copyright 2005-2018 As I Sit Here and Rot Nicole D'Settēmi

Topic(s) of this poem: death, addiction, health, mental illness, rehabilitation, depression

Form: Lyric


Comments about As I Sit Here And Rot by Nicole D'Settemi

  • Sarah Shahzad (1/11/2020 12:19:00 AM)

    fabulous wrote..! great sharing keep it up :) (Report)Reply

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  • Jez Burl (7/23/2019 6:40:00 PM)

    A great way of fighting addiction! I salute the fighting soul within! 10+++++ (Report)Reply

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  • (11/6/2018 1:38:00 PM)

    What a great description of drug addiction, well done. (Report)Reply

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  • Drtony Brahmin (7/14/2018 5:26:00 AM)

    Go away—
    Stop invading my mind, PLEASE
    I run, and I hide!
    But, you always seem to find me! the struggle to get away from addiction is really real.. you have portrayed it so very well......... always remain positive. you will conquer and be successful dear Nicole. tony
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  • Chinedu Dike (6/22/2018 9:10:00 PM)

    Getting out from under the grip of addiction is a struggle, real struggle. A well articulated piece of poetry written with insight. A good creation. Thanks for sharing Nicole. (Report)Reply

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  • Bri Edwards (1/22/2018 3:33:00 PM)

    i'm going to correct two spellings before using in 'showcase':

    Or how to possbily hide it possibly .... and.....This Lost Posioned Soul..Poisoned

    ok? bri :)
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  • Bri Edwards (1/22/2018 2:46:00 PM)

    i'll include your 'copyright' line in the showcase, and your name, poem and title, and a 'partial link' to its page, ie: /poem/as-i-sit-here-and-rot/

    bri :)
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  • Bri Edwards (1/22/2018 2:43:00 PM)

    today i plan to put this poem into my/our February 2018 'showcase', on my PoemHunter site.
    here is the link:
    www.poemhunter.com/poem/february-2018-showcase-for-and-often-by-p-h-members-poems-collected-from-willing-and-sometimes-un-willing-poets-for-your-reading-enjoyment/

    Thanks. let me know if you DON'T want it in the showcase and i'll remove it.

    bri :)
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  • Bri Edwards (1/9/2018 8:35:00 PM)

    i just sent three comments but PH shows none of them when i check my postings! ! ! and i see them not below. : ( good grief Charlie Brown. (Report)Reply

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  • (1/9/2018 8:33:00 PM)

    i hope you are still alive to read my comments. PH DOES 'say' you are online now. is this poem really YOU, or is it imagination or someone else? i wonder.

    two typos i missed the first time i read:
    Or how to possbily hide it and This Lost Posioned Soul

    i like the capitals and the alliteration here: DO DROP DEAD. nice. to MyPoemList. bri ;)
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  • (1/9/2018 8:26:00 PM)

    i like your rhymes and near-rhymes, AND that you did not insist on rhyming 'all the time', which i feel can detract from other parts of a poem when the forced-rhyming interferes with grammar and understanding.
    i like the use of asterisks.............though i don't give a fuck if you type shit! (to be continued) .....
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  • (1/9/2018 8:21:00 PM)

    some favorite lines:
    This must be the battle
    And, I am losing this fight!
    &
    Dared to be heartless
    And, apathetic and cold
    &
    Oh God, how I'm pained...
    JESUS CHRIST, how I itch! (to be continued) ....................
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  • (12/15/2011 7:15:00 PM)

    WoW this is some DEEP stuff this is a great poem (Report)Reply

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  • (12/5/2011 3:37:00 PM)

    Wow. One of the best poems i have read.
    A truly great write.
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Poem Submitted: Monday, December 5, 2011

Poem Edited: Saturday, August 10, 2019


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