Nicole D'Settemi

Rookie - 166 Points (June 25th / Niagara Falls)

As I Sit Here And Rot - Poem by Nicole D'Settemi

I cannot stop these cravings,
I just really want to shoot it
Oh yes, I know the truth;
Oh yes, I fucking blew it!

I'm not sure where to turn
Or, how to possibly hide it
I'm completely addicted now
And, I need not deny it!

Everything has paused,
It's like life has suddenly stopped
And, I'm stuck craving this shit—
As I sit here and rot!

I cannot shake these feelings
Of being out of control
I cannot seem to refrain
From leaning towards this hole

And, I'm frightened now!
You son of a bitch!
Oh God, how I'm pained...
JESUS CHRIST, how I itch!

My skin, it is throbbing
My heart, it beats slow
Yet, I feel as if I'm on fire!
As if I could explode!

Go away—
Stop invading my mind PLEASE
I run, and I hide!
But, you always seem to find me!

You are there all the time
Day in, through the night
This is undoubtedly, a battle
And, I am losing this fight!

Yet, I still don't give in
Or, at least I won't give up NOW—
But, I'm heading straight for danger—
If I don't GET UP NOW!

You are warping my thoughts
You are fucking with my vision
With all your sick fine-tuning;
And, excellent precision!

YET, I see enough to comprehend
The truth; it is RIGHT THERE
So, now I must slay them all
Those, who took the DARE!

Those, who helped corrupt
This Lost Poisoned Soul
Dared to be heartless
And, apathetic and cold!

It's over with now—
Why, I've taken your head!

I've won, I'm clean
I'm fresh, I'm new
And, you're dead, you're ugly
You're gone,
You're you.

Yes, YOU.

© copyright 2010-2017 As I Sit Here and Rot Nicole D'Settēmi

Topic(s) of this poem: addiction, death, depression, health, mental illness

Form: Lyric

Comments about As I Sit Here And Rot by Nicole D'Settemi

  • Bri Edwards (1/22/2018 3:33:00 PM)

    i'm going to correct two spellings before using in 'showcase':

    Or how to possbily hide it possibly .... and.....This Lost Posioned Soul..Poisoned

    ok? bri :)
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  • Bri Edwards (1/22/2018 2:46:00 PM)

    i'll include your 'copyright' line in the showcase, and your name, poem and title, and a 'partial link' to its page, ie: /poem/as-i-sit-here-and-rot/

    bri :)
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  • Bri Edwards (1/22/2018 2:43:00 PM)

    today i plan to put this poem into my/our February 2018 'showcase', on my PoemHunter site.
    here is the link:

    Thanks. let me know if you DON'T want it in the showcase and i'll remove it.

    bri :)
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  • Bri Edwards (1/9/2018 8:35:00 PM)

    i just sent three comments but PH shows none of them when i check my postings! ! ! and i see them not below. : ( good grief Charlie Brown. (Report) Reply

  • (1/9/2018 8:33:00 PM)

    i hope you are still alive to read my comments. PH DOES 'say' you are online now. is this poem really YOU, or is it imagination or someone else? i wonder.

    two typos i missed the first time i read:
    Or how to possbily hide it and This Lost Posioned Soul

    i like the capitals and the alliteration here: DO DROP DEAD. nice. to MyPoemList. bri ;)
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  • (1/9/2018 8:26:00 PM)

    i like your rhymes and near-rhymes, AND that you did not insist on rhyming 'all the time', which i feel can detract from other parts of a poem when the forced-rhyming interferes with grammar and understanding.
    i like the use of asterisks.............though i don't give a fuck if you type shit! (to be continued) .....
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  • (1/9/2018 8:21:00 PM)

    some favorite lines:
    This must be the battle
    And, I am losing this fight!
    Dared to be heartless
    And, apathetic and cold
    Oh God, how I'm pained...
    JESUS CHRIST, how I itch! (to be continued) ....................
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  • (12/15/2011 7:15:00 PM)

    WoW this is some DEEP stuff this is a great poem (Report) Reply

  • (12/5/2011 3:37:00 PM)

    Wow. One of the best poems i have read.
    A truly great write.
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Poem Submitted: Monday, December 5, 2011

Poem Edited: Saturday, March 10, 2018

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