Asleep In Death Poem by Patrick Shields

I go to bed every night hoping not to wake up
Praying to god to have mercy on my sole
But no amount of praying will ever be enough
Because I want to die a young twenty year old

Everyday I wake up in this life it's a nightmare
I always have hoped that this night might be my last
But it seems that people who hate life live longer which isn't fair
Yet the lives of the ones who love life go by so fast

I long to fall asleep in this partial night and wake up in eternal night
But sadly I live everyday with so much disgust and distain
As my so called family try to cheer me up with the blinding light
I wish I could just block out there happiness and go insane

Yet the dead unknowingly mock me laying in there graves
So peaceful the deceased are what I would give to be dead
It's gotten to the point where I don't really care if I'm saved
They'd find me with a hot peace of sharpened lead in my head

Whatever the weapon or method it doesn't matter much to me
But I'd most likely just swallow some pills before I went to bed
And than maybe to me life would be nothing but a bad dream
Than I'd never have to wake up ever again because I'd be dead