Best Friend Poem by John Michael

As I stair into my friends eyes, I see a question being asked. “Why did it take you this long to enjoy me? And why did my friend have to die for it to begin? ”. as he gets older, I want him to remember me as a good person. Not a person that doesn’t care… That’s why I did it. As I stair into his eyes, I feel guilt, shame, a bunch of emotions that are negative. I have learned you must live and forgive, I stay by this as much as I can but I cant in this case. I feel I have let him down, disappointed and led him to a meaning less life. All I can say is I’m sorry, and if I had the chance I would change how I acted. I love him with all my heart, I fear that he will die soon, I hope he doesn’t. I will be crushed, and feel so bad for so many things I never did for him. I sense there is a strong trust between us now, but I cant be sure. He tends to lean on me when I try to comfort him, and will lay down, out of no where, just so I can stay with him. And when I leave I see those sad eyes starring at me, like “where are you going? How long will you be gone? ” all I can say is I love you and leave. He is one of my best friends now, I love him so much, and I wont be able to live with out him, and I wish him good luck on his journey when it is time. I feel that he has accepted and forgave me, but I still feel bad for what I did. I wish I can stay with him for hours on end, but there are barriers in the way. For our newest family member is in the way. don’t get me wrong here, I love the new guy, but I wish I could be alone with my best friend. All I can say is I love you. This poem is random, but has helped my feelings, all I said is true, my best friend I cant live with out…