Better Without You Poem by Angela Deal

what am i waiting for
why is that i cant let anyone in the door
still waiting what i came here for
still imagining that you were everything i was lookin for
cant sleep without you by my side
cant share what i feel inside
cant put the burden of my insecure thoughts in your pleseant world
so without you knowing the way i feel without sacrificing my pride
i walk a way
find a way
to live in my head
to be alone to be dead
to be this beautiful lie
Damn i wish i could cry
I cant even scream
And as easy as it may seem
for someone so egocentric for a spoiled boy as yourself
as a strong selfish peice of work who can play the game
confusing dysfuntion
pulling away from the suction
of this! ! ! ! !
yearning for bliss
to weak to push to the top
stuck in this circle and i cant stop
loving you & hating the every essence of you
distraction
striving for a reaction
finaly feel like i am ready
to leave you with the knowledge of everything you lost
i hope you know everything, hope you finally pay the cost
Just hope i will be steady
Time to go