Big Regret Poem by Anastasija Bobileva

My life is a mess
My head constantly spinning
I didn't know what to do
So I prayed for a new begining

I wished for you
But when my wish came true
I didn't have a clue about what to do
You were only with me for a little while

Your sex not yet determined
But deep down I knew
This wasnt the right time for you
So I made a selfish decision
And chose my life over yours

I gave you back to God
And hoped again for a new begining
You never get to see me
Or even open your eyes
But please believe me when I say
You will be with me forever

Please don't hate me
Or let your death be in vein
Because you thought me a lesson
To hope for future again

I promised to be a better person
And learn from my mistakes
But my only ever wish will be to have
Seen your face

I love you my sweet baby
Wherever you may be
I can't wait to meet you
But for now please be free
xxx