Blackened Heart Poem by Jakob Joseph

A blackened, barren and lonely heart is all I have,
Id do anything to get away,
get away from all this pain and suffering,
I've tried everything from drugs to running,
drugs to take my mind,
running to take my body,
all simply just to take me away from here,
but no matter how high I flew i couldn't escape this feeling,
no matter how far i ran I couldn't out run this pain.

This demon always taunting me, mocking me, perpetually clawing at the back of my thoughts.
to the depths of my sole I feel this sorrow,
to the depths of my blackened heart feel this pain,
there is no escape, no oasis,
there is only the world I've created.

but throughout time I found a way to fight the pain and sorrow,
inside my mind I created masks, faces and feelings,
I subdued my demons with chains and masked them,
I hid them deep within my blackened heart,
so that no sole would find them.


In this world I've created I am Jakob,
it's a mask I wear and a mask I hold dear,
Inside my mind I am jake,
this mask I rarely wear but still a mask I hold dear,
these two masks make up the face the world sees,
a balance between the two that makes the world go round.

Jake is my demon, my inner hate, but savior non the less,
he takes away all the pain, all the sorrow, all the hate, and asks for nothing,
Jakob is my empathy, my balance and my mask,
together the two make up my world,
in this world i know no sorrow,
in this world people love me,
in the world I am happy,
in my world I am sain.