Breaking Poem by Courtney Beaudry

I'm gonna pretend you're here
I'm gonna pretend I'm fine
I'm gonna believe it all
Just to keep my heart from breaking

I feel you here wtih me
I want you to truly see
Don't ignore the pain you see
Behind my eyes

I'll say it's okay
I'll hold you
I'll stay here
And I'll die here

Cuz I'm breaking
And I'm fading
And I don't know why
You're not saving
I believe you
And all you do
But I'm hurting
Are you deserting?

I fall asleep depressed
And wonder why I'm like this
Why am I thinking this?
Wasn't it all just bliss?

I'm crying silently
And hope you'll never see this
I just want you to be
The one for me

Ohh
Even if I'm dying
Don't leave me, please

I'll say it's okay
I'll hold you
I'll stay here
And I'll die here

Cuz I'm breaking
And I'm fading
And I don't know why
You're not saving
I believe you
And all you do
But I'm hurting
Are you deserting?

I just won't question
I'll learn my lesson
So darling, my lover
Love no other

But just know I'm breaking!
Inside I'm fading
And I still don't know
Why you're not saving
Me
But I still believe you!
And everything you do!
Just stop this hurting!
I need to know
Are you deserting?