Broken Heart Poem by TaBresha Bozeman

You know what make it so hard to love
Is that I love too much
Trying to forget all the past memories
But I think I need a crutch
First there was my first love
but he didnt too much care
as long as I kept my virginity
he forgot that I was there
then there was the second one
who promised me love forever
he used me until he got what he wanted
that was pretty clever
now that wasnt the last of him
we stayed together a while
then he promised me what I never had
even marriage and a child
but he had hidden low self-esteem
before I fell in love
he never gave me the trust I begged for
and the pain fit like a glove
the pain felt natural
because I was use to it
after myIlast love passed me off
actively sexual just seemed fit
then there was my bestfriend
for whom I found release
then he treated me as if I was nothing
my heart, he took another piece
so I moved on to find a mend
to my brokenheart
then this one often forced me to have sex
so I didnt know where to start
he reminded me of my second love
who took advantage of my treasure
I felt like I died a long time ago
my soul as light as a feather
then I found my special friend
for whom I found attractive
he filled me up with a lot of joy
and was surprisingly not sexually active
then I put a lot of effort
in it for he and I
and what i put my thoughts into
became such a lie
he didnt like being held down
which really hurt me worst
because the things I imagine with us were untrue
and the pain really hurt
i thought i found love again
but the joke was on me
my heart was already fragile
and you stepped on the key
then i felt the pain surge
and death couldnt be this bad
i envy the people with true love
and see what i never had
they say its more to life
yet love conquers all
i never thought the value of love
could always make me fall
i gave my body to anyone
who thought it was worth getting
then all of them claim only friends
while on my heart their sitting
my purpose in life was to love without remorse
now i know its true
today i just prey to God
that they dont suffer like i do
even though im hurt
i still forgave them all
and like i usually do, blame myself
for every, trip and fall
now my body is worthless
but my soul is still pure
only love can fix a heart break
and only He knows the cure