Broken Heart Poem by Marius Schoeman

Hallo once again, pain and suffering
How nice of you to come visit me again
I see you brought a couple of friends this time
Anger, sadness and sorrow… even self-pity you slime

We have known each other all my life
Shared many tears together, and cuts from a knife
I believed you were replaced by true love
I thought it'll last forever since she's a gift from above

You know love hates you whenever you're around
Always leaving my heart, when you bring me down
The last time, I could not handle you anymore
When love left the last time, it shut my heart's door

I had to get married without trust in my life
It took five years for my heart to open for my wife
I know anger and regret never left my side
But once again all I think about is suicide

Once again I wasn't good enough
I couldn't keep happy the one that I love
She says that they didn't love one another
Yet they held hands and sent hearts and kisses to each other

She was my only friend
I believed my happiness would never end
She was my pillar, my children's mother
Yet she shared her heart with someone I called brother

I woke up each day because I loved her so much
Yet now I feel betrayed every time that we touch
She says that she loves me, yet she told him that too
This is the hardest thing I will ever have to go through

I often though intimacy would help
It usually made me forget the way that I felt
Yet as soon as it was over questions filled my mind
How could I ever have been so blind?

She is my everything, I believed that she loved me
Yet when I left for work it was his phone call that made her happy
They bought each other a little souvenir
And lied about where it's from, convinced me she was sincere

There are so many things I cannot forget
Thoughts filled my mind even while I slept
I dreamed that she was sorry and wanted to stay
But as soon as I turned my back, he was standing in the doorway


I have to forgive her that much I know
But for as long as I remember, I cannot let it go
The only way to cope with this, is to carry all the blame
Another way I failed in life that makes me feel ashamed

I cannot live without her, I would rather die
Yet saying that I still feel alive inside, is also a lie
She promised me she would love me more
But why couldn't she do it before?

She says she felt lonely, yet I was there every single day
Begging her to talk to me and share her feelings some way
I even asked to start all over again
Yet while I was giving it all, she soothed another man's pain

We are all human and we all make mistakes
Some cope with their problems with the pills they take
I chose to carry my feelings deep inside
But she chose to save his life even as I died

She admitted they would never have told us
Even thought about a way to cover it all up
Will anything she does forward ever be enough?
Will I ever believe she does it out of real love?

Will my heart and mind always be filled with thoughts?
That she doesn't regret giving away her love, but only being caught
One thing I do know is that I don't want to live anymore
Because nothing will ever feel real like before

I will try to go on, keeping my broken feelings inside
Just do what I can each day so that I can provide
A roof over their heads and food on their table
Until the day I am no longer able

………… Four years later …………

It's been four years and finally the truth came out
Holding hands and words were not all it was about
I dreamed about it often, always expecting more
And finally, yesterday morning she opened the door

When I left to go to work during those hateful days
She went to his room and I got betrayed
She shared her body with him while our kids were asleep
I never thought the truth would cut me this deep

I spent last night heartbroken and awake
How can more than once have been a mistake
Why could she let him kiss and touch her at all
Was our "until death do us part" promise so small?


I am not sure how to handle it this time
The only way to truly share what I feel is with this rhyme
I have no family or friends who could help me carry on
The only friend I ever cared about now feels gone

I will never be able to live without her in my life
So, I'll just pretend she has always been a faithful wife
But what do I do about my sister-in-law?
All I want to do is break her husband's jaw

I'd be lying to say this isn't more painful than what I felt before
But the fact is I still love her the same as before
I cannot see myself without her in my life
But it's not easy to know someone else shared your wife

I honestly don't need people to feel sorry for me
Nothing will change the past and that is the reality
As long as my children have both a mom and a dad
They do not have to know that behind my smile I am actually sad

I will try to go on, keeping my broken feelings inside
Just do what I can each day, so that I can provide
A roof over their heads and food on their table
Until the day I am no more able