But I Continued Poem by montana hohensee

i feel the tender touch trickle onto my skin
bathing over my body
consuming the depths
enveloping my being
my love
my hate
my pain
me
collapsing on my soul
the tonnage is heavy
as my knees sway
with every step trembling
with every move exhausting
i continue on
slowly moving forward
the touch moves my heart
the touch moves my body
surrounding my mind
it moves with ease
forever to not cease
it knows no bias
it knows no pain
it seeps and stirs
never to take shape
but the shape of the consumption
manifesting its self into the subject
with every gasp of air i take
it consumes more
but i continue on
my knees sway
with every step trembling
with every move exhausting
i continue on
my mind
my heart
cease to be allies
raging war on each other
raging on
raging
raging
the more i continue
the more fuel is thrown between them
meet into the cage
rage
rage
rage
they say the enemy of my enemy is my friend
but the enemy of the enemy is my mind
and the enemy of the enemy is my heart
they tear deep into me
rage
all caused by the bleak void
void of nothing
the development of it all
a black hole inside me
inside my mind
rage
rage
i feel it
i know it
it tears me
deepening the cut
into my being
all i can do is run
never cease
never stop
the dagger sinks deep
striking a winning blow
striking a winning kill
victory has been obtained
but not by my heart
my mind has won
won the war that raged
on and on
on on
and on
cause by the dark
as the tender touch trickle onto my skin
bathing over my body
consuming the depths
enveloping my being
my love
my hate
my pain
me
collapsing on my soul

i felt it
when i first back tracked to the shadows
it slowly overcame my body
my eyes matched with yours never leaving
till i finally saw you turn your back
till i finally saw you turn
till i finally saw
till i
till i turned
the void was welcoming
bathing me slowly
eradicating my pain
made strong my mind
letting my heart lose
i don't feel
i only know
i saw you turn

but why
why did you turn
was the star in my heart not bright
was the star in my mind not vibrant
your kiss was still on my lips
it was poison
your kiss poisoned my heart
to only love you
to only feel you

my heart
it turned on my mind
slowly eating away all my logic
fogging my thoughts
i realize now.
the void
it helped me
it saved my being
by killing my heart
i stepped into the shadows,
it changed me
made me faster
making me more of the person i knew i should have
but you poisoned my heart
i know this now
why did you poison me...