Can I Rest? Poem by mariya ward

Am tired and I want to rest.

Am tired of requesting people not to hurt me.

Am tired of just keep going without anyone walking next to me.

Does everyone say I'll be there but are they there! ?

Am tired because it's hard to wait for your turn to be happy.

Am tired that I know whatever they'll do
I just can't do the same with them.

Am tired of waiting for someone who wants to be with you not because they had to but because they want to.

Am tired of asking people to
STOP IT
PLEASE STOP IT
Don't you know you are hurting me?

Am tired that people just assume. Ah! she'll understand

Am so tired that I don't want to argue and surely don't want to relive the pain.

Am tired because I don't want to be alone and numb

Am tired because I know I'll be heartbroken again.