Can't Forget You Poem by Andrus Cassian

The years have all started with January
a comforting effect, a personal safety net
to know past turmoils blow over
and begin anew
so why have I woken up in December once again
After Midnight Project compelled the mirror to ask sleepily
'The Becoming, what I have become? '
The past is in conference with the present planning for the future
showing flashbacks of the phases like weather I've been under
shifting from an oblivious angel to a wavering clone
a wavering clone to a knowing liar
a knowing liar to a heartless wolf
a heartless wolf to a careless chameleon
a careless chameleon to...to...the answer is unknown
My counselor, Blue October, notices my distraction
my inability to hold conversations
the results are a sweaty sickness and wanting to jump off a cliff
According to these pages blank pages, I'm unfinished
so many expectations to meet, plans to complete
but I've started nothing, committed to nothing
except donating my hours to leisure
stimulating my mind only to satisfy the urge to fight and explode
The diagnosis states I'm not myself
taken by an anonymous survey but even the mirror shows it
All the names I've constructed have became perfect paper planes
I'm just Russell this time, it's all I have
I always blame these feelings, it's unfair
the direction of the blame I point
falls to Isabel, Belle, Juliet, Myria, Anastasia, Sarah
their memories I cannot forget
their images I cannot erase
I...I...I...(sigh) I just can't forget you