Can This Marriage Be? Poem by Fatai Alli

What have I done to deserve this hurt?
That you aimed your dagger of betrayal at me
And almost crumbled my heart

Why do I see the fruits of all my love
Dissipate into thin air as if what we had
Did not exist

The society of love is appalled and betrayed
But heaven cannot stand to see infidelity
Wrought destruction on all we have built
Lest we have laboured in vain


What sweetness of flesh
Could make you stray?
What words of mouth carried you away?
That you could just play
Into the arms of pleasure and death
All at once!

Is this the result of neglect?
Or the concrete play of fantasy of mind
That has turned so real
And led to heated distraction.
In a passionate sin of evil lust

Can trust ever be restored?
Or does constant torture on a cheated mind
Lead to inescapable obsession
That cannot be lived with,
Leading to inevitable separation
Only time will tell, as
Every waking hour I have
Every dream that bedevils my mind
Every time I see your face
I am tortured by the memory
of your being in the arms of another

as if it is no longer you, but a complete stranger
I have spent a better part of, my life with.
The betrayal is intense, I almost cannot stand the pain.
But for the benevolence of God.
I sure would have been dead.