Childhood Laughter Poem by Mayar Akash

When I found kindness and comfort
I started to open up
My grey shadows slowly started to disappear
as happiness and laughter took over
My mind eased as sadness ceased.

As warmth and gaiety christened my soul
my heart filled with hopes
For once my sadness and sorrow left me,
singing merrily with the sun shining in my life.

For once I had the taste of sincere warmth
one big happy family, not mine to call it; my own
but, where I temporarily found my child hood suspended:
lingering with fear of,
condemnation, ridicule, obligation, acceptance, freely sharing my thoughts.
My childhood laughter that stood in the dark,
as the light shone pass my childhood years.

Happiness joined my childhood laughters
which stood in the dark for so long,
As I tool happiness for granted
harsh words fermented,
penetrated my mind's barriers.

Naturally closed and retained the unattained childhood,
now I need to pay for having a piece of childhood happiness.