City... Poem by Soumi Mukhopadhyay

A city where everyone wants to go…
I was also determined to go…
Two years back I had crossed the station…
The name itself gives me shivers…
I had dreams to visit your part…
I wanted to relive it…
Two years now….
I have got….
The city calls….
But blank all of a sudden….
I visited the graveyard of my memory….
I cried I summoned …
But nothing was scary…
Than the thoughts and visions I had…
The city I have my old my present …all…
But none for me sure…
I have heard blank broken calls…
Blaming me judging me…
For all…
I am no one from nowhere sure…
But in your city my pain will not be cure…
Where am I now, I am not happy…
But in your city I will be lone in the crowd…
I want to gaze a view of u in my eyes…
But not with someone in some others eyes…
My story is not complete for sure..
I am alone not lonely I know…
I will laugh cry shout in coming days…
Ur city calls me in my dreams…
I am desperate to sacrifice all but not myself for you..
As u exists in me, only not in life …
Someday down some time ….
Your city I will go…
Visit and come back. To forget my woe…
The great decision I had to take…
The new rules I have to set..
Making taking seeking …
All I can do…
Although I can't be happy ….
But can't be sad too…
Your city in my heart will always stay…