Confused Poem by Lexey Trybus

Confusion overwhelms my mind,
Now, I have questions all the time,
Answers are what I try to find,
It's starting to over-ride.
My main question is Why? ! ,
Why, is over-riding my mind,
Why this, Why that, Why me,
It make me cry.
When I try to understand this confusion,
Usually I just end up more confused,
Daddy, what you did to me, I just want to make it a delusion,
No one, no matter what, should be sexually abused.
You meant so much to me,
And now I wonder how it could be so true,
Still til' this very day I plead,
That I could stop loving you,
So much that it's a need.
Daddy what you did to me, shattered my heart </3,
Now I'm waiting for someone else to pick up the pieces,
I let my feelings out through art,
And sometimes I pray to Jesus.
I tell myself I'll be okay,
I have to remind myself this everyday,
Day to day, I try to make my thoughts fade,
But the memories you left me, will never go away.
I had to build walls,
To get through it all,
And now they are falling down,
Slowly, but surely.
<3