Confused Poem by Jei Yu

I don't know what am I doing
I felt so confused the way my life is going
I know its not right
but still one side of my heart decide
I keep doing what is wrong
Yes I know it very wrong
But the way I feel when I'm into it
really makes me feel happy and strong

O, God please help me get out of this doing,
I know its bad but my heart keeps winning
Sorry If there are times I become evil
this is because of my hearts desire.

Sad to live like this
hard to live this way
Yes I know what I'm doing
it just that I let things keep going,
bad or good? I don't know
all I know its hard and very sad.